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明知道我爱你 却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你 宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理 幸福在手里
我恨自己 无能为力

This song portrays my love for cchyco ..

so sorry for not helping in clearing th mess .. i'm useless .


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It's 2011 now ..
Time sure flies .
I'm sec 4 now, but i don't seemed to be prepared ..
I attended a motivational workshop in school and found out that I have the 'S' personality who fears changes and conflict .

I agree with th conflict but , changes ? I don't think so . However, someone smsed me and said : You always know alot of things but you run away from it. Because you're afraid of changes.

I was shocked when i read this .. then i started to reflect on what i've done. Indeed, i'm afraid of changes ...

Changes .. lets start from friends .
I have always prayed and hoped that my friends will not leave me and that we will always be a clique together. We used to have 6 in th clique.. some left , some stayed , some joined . Now ? From 6 to 5 to 4 to 3 .. there's only 3 of us now . Moreover, i'm rarely with them since i'm from different class and they made new friends too . How am i to join in their conversation when i'm not close with them ? That's why, i'm afraid , i run away , i dare not voice out my feelings , i kept it in my heart , and just let things take it naturally ....

Changes .. lets continue from my cca (Chinese Orchestra x3)
CCA , in my next life , i will definitely make a difference in CO ... Why i said that ?
CCA has been a part of my life ever since Secondary one. It's a passion that had grown from my heart. Passion towards CO and my instrument . Yes, anyone would think that it was only a cca, but to me , it's like my second home, another place where my heart belongs to . I know i can't expect anybody to be like me . BUT , can't they feel anything for their instrument ? th CO room where we always had our practices ?
People lose their passion towards co ... and i can't blame them . Conflicts occur in co , political conflicts .. Cliques unhappy with other cliques .. One matter after the another , how do we maintain this ? How do we make sure that everyone's attitude is correct ? In th first place, what is correct ?
I'm in th committee but i did nothing to make a difference .. i didn't do anything to help . I chose to run away from the prob .

Fellow secondary fours, do you guys understand why in th world we have to have a talk on Tues ? It's cuz of you guys and for th sake of th next generation to take over us .
Attitude .. change them . How hard is tht ? Very hard , esp for people who lost their interest . Or when their attitude is already like that from th beginning .

Fellow juniors, please please please don't follow our footsteps . Please make a difference , please don't be like us. You guys never know how much we went thru .. I don't want to see you guys suffering , please continue to make CCHYCO th best cca in CCHY . Our seniors set th foundation, we are sorry for th mess we made, so this time, it's your turn to shine. Make us proud , esp Mdm Teo and Zhao lao shi . They have done alot for us .

To Jiaee, you never know what a huge difference you have made in CCHYCO :D you think tht you are useless , but i, WE , don't think so . Yes, you are not fierce, not strict. But i like the way you don't force people, CCHYCO had fun cuz of you . Yea, people start to take advantage of you and made lots of noises. That's th time u have to be fierce girl ! Freedom, yupps i agree we need freedom . You are th one that gave us th freedom we need aft getting tortured by him :x Nobody appreciate th choice u haven't given us, but i know some of them do, at least i do . That night .. remember we talked to Mr Chang and pig ? Indeed th prev chairman is not good, thus we our clique voted you to be th chairman . At first, i didn't choose you . Why ? It's cuz i'm afraid of changes .. i don't want it being hard on wanru .. i don't want you to suffer .

Why can't we just let things be ? That's what i thought . I don't even know why i'm th vice-chair , you never know how relieved i felt when i was removed from th position .
Therefore, since you got this position , work hard for it ! I know you always did , so just a reminder for you, don't give up in whatever you do . It's not your fault that th sec fours attitude is like tht . IT's ours . We don't blame you ok .

When you talked about how you zibi in th CO room, talking about us gonna leave th CO room . You cried .. then i cried after thinking about it . Yes, we are leaving CO .. After th SYF , after th olevels , we won't be able to see it everyday . Feel th air , feel th instruments . How i wish everybody in cchyco work hard , esp the sec fours . Why can't you guys have th same feeling as me ? We worked hard together, went thru th troubles together, thus th bond is created . This special bond .. why can't everybody feel it .

People talked about us not having th bond .. ya right , not having th bond ? you guys are so wrong . The bond is within us , it's only about us want or don't want to show it. We always had th practices together, how can we not have this bond in us ?

Th day tht we practised in th hall before going to th SCH... erhu-ians .. did u guys sing ? ask urself.. did ur mouth even moved ? That day i cried ..
Why i cried ? I feel that i have disappointed our seniors, especially Cheuk Tow . I took her as my idol , i appreciated how she shouted 'hei zo' so loudly and not feeling embarassed in our prev SYF song . But now ? i don't dare to do it , i couldn't set an example for my juniors , like how i was motivated to shout that time . I felt sorry for them , sorry for being so useless , sorry for not setting a good example . I feel that all th faults are directing at me , i'm useless . That's what i thought . Changes .. i don't want anything to change, i want CO just like how it used to be . But , nothing stays th same . Everything changes , including myself . I changed .
It rained on tht day , and i asked if th god is crying looking at how pathetic we are .. if you're , don't cry . It's our fault, not you . Please stop crying .

Now, it's th final year , i'm secondary four now , i have to enjoy th times i have in CO as much as possible . Because, we are gonna leave this home soon . So one of my goals currently is to perform my best in cchyco . Even if one person can't make a huge diff, i'm gonna do my best without any regrets . I don't want to cry at th end thinking that i haven't do anything for CO . It's my last chance to perform , please dont scold me for not wanting any change. Because this time, i want back th feeling we had on th stage ... i want back th tears we had aft th performance . It's my last chance .. please god, buddha or whoever, please protect us till the end . I really appreciate it .. Please let cchyco survive this journey , not unhurt as th process is important , but just make to th end . Gold with Honours , that's what we're gonna get, nobody can stop us . Jiayou people !!

Young and future generations of cchyco , please work hard for cchyco , this is my only plea . I will do my part for my home , so please do your part too. Make cchyco th best ever , Gold with Honours all th way ya :D Thankyou so much . This senior here will wish all of you all th best !


Lastly, i will also work hard for my olevels ! I don't want to disappoint my family and teachers. This is my only chance , i must grab it.
Ok, that's all ! This may be my last time posting it so .. tata ~

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